You know how even atheists shall cry out to the Lord when faced with the possibility of death or any other such terrifying moment?

Well, sometimes Christians are no different.

We wake up every day going on about our business,taking a taxi,driving to work, making calls, reply any mention of us on the social media; a few angry remarks here and there..before we know it, The day has ended. We whine more than we should and compliment a lot less than we can. We think it is okay because “It’s my life”

Except, it’s not.  I mean it’s not okay, not it’s not your life.

Some evenings I am so exhausted all I get to say before I sleep is Amen or simply the Lord’s prayer; on many mornings I am too ‘lazy’ to even mumble that prayer. When I do pray,I sometimes rush it more than I should.

However, when someone close to me is in pain or am at a point of crossroads in my life, my every waking moment is spent in some sort of prayer, consciously or sub consciously. I sing his praise, read a few verses and pray or fast.

I will stress God so he can give me a sign of some sort, I shall call on him till he hears my cry.


How often do we go back to thank him after that call to tell us ‘You got the job!’ How many times do we at least say ‘thank you father’ before we close our eyes? Do you remember the last time you had any sort of thanksgiving for your love, family and all other elements of your better than average life?

Lately, I have gotten to a point that I can’t quite explain. I am yearning for God and yet not searching, searching but not finding,whispering when I want to praise. I am…numb.

Everyone who has shared their pain with me in the past few weeks has earned a prayer but when I get to the part about me, I go silent,stiff and stare into space..then it ends there and I hope that the next day shall be better.

I have woken up from nightmares,accumulated sweat,fear and random thoughts in the wee hours of the morning but none of it makes sense.

I think. Reminisce..but nothing.

So I say, I will take it to the Lord in prayer, and then I don’t

I think maybe talking to someone will help, but probably not

Oh, a getaway will take some of it away, tried it, lasted only as long as a the time away

and ……we’re back…




Maybe someone else has gone through the same ordeal or is gong through it right now. Maybe this will be one of those posts which you simply can’t relate to. Still, I got a few verses to sort of help me through some of the emotions I have been feeling lately and thought I would share.

We can’t always have the answers but I know the one who does hears us even before we call and understands the most subtle signs beckoning him.

This should just be the default rule. When in doubt, ask Him, when you are certain, ask Him,before you begin, during and after the decision you are about to make/making/have made, ask Him!

Let it all be about Him, and not you.

Proverbs 3:5-6 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.

When things do not seem to be working out, but you believe in them still,stand still and await his direction.

1 Corinthians 15:58

Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labour is not in vain.

Suffering? Well, you are certainly not on your own and guess what? It will build you-for real..

Romans 5:1-21

Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. …

Anger; Yes, it is natural but don’t let it consume you

Ephesians 4:26-27

Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil.

It is not just you. We all have the moments of grace and those of defeat.

Ecclesiastes 9:11

Again I saw that under the sun the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, nor bread to the wise, nor riches to the intelligent, nor favour to those with knowledge, but time and chance happen to them all.

Temptation. We can’t always fight it but look to Him, he believes in you.

1 Corinthians 10:13

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man.God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

Nobody said it was easy. If they did, they lied.

Have hope. Keep the faith

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.

  • James 1:2-4

    Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

Doing good with little or no reward

Philippians 1:6

And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.


Endure and you will reap,don’t believe me? Trust Him

Hebrews 12:1-15

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted. In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. And have you forgotten the exhortation that addresses you as sons? “My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord, nor be weary when reproved by him.

If we endure, we will also reign with him; if we deny him, he also will deny us;

And finally, we should be thankful to God for anything and everything and let him know whenever we can.

I chant ‘Thank you Lord’ whenever I can. It could be a hymn for you or a favourite song but do let him know.

Philippians 4:6
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

This may not all make sense now. God knows even I have some doubt as I type this. On those days when the blows keep coming with no warning and last longer than they should, I ask myself why and want, even need to give up but you know what? Still I rise, and so should you 🙂

Where do I go?
Where do I go?

May God see you through the difficult and happy times alike for it takes an end to see a beginning.

Thank him and call on him. He doesn’t mind either but think about it. Which do you prefer to have people constantly ask you for things or knowing that even f you are their provider, they still have the courtesy to thank you?

Stick with Him and you shall be  in for a thrilling ride…You gerrit,right? 😉


One Reply to “Crossroads”

  1. God isn’t only in the Bible you know, if you want real answers and real peace maybe you might have to explore somewhere else? Just a suggestion, but i have been there.


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